Thursday, June 16, 2011

WEEK 13/ PROUD MOMMY

Hi all, I'm sorry I haven't posted in a while. I haven't been over eating or anything I've just been fighting this stomach flu. So I haven't really been eating much but chicken broth, and maybe some saltines if I can keep them down. On a good note though; I know I have lost some weight because I've been throwing up at the sight or smell of solid food for the past few days.



Today is my son's last day of school, and he had an assembly earlier this week. I am proud to say that he received three medals and two certificates for reading, math, citizenship, and attendance. He got the most awards in his second grade class! Yes I am a proud mommy, and yes I did take about twenty pictures of him when he got home. Until next time...

love,

Jessica

Thursday, June 9, 2011

HI MY NAME IS JESSICA AND I'M ADDICTED TO THE SCALE



While I was looking online to to buy a new scale I found an article (4 signs it's time to step of the scale by, Jason Anderson), and I felt like the arthur was talking about me. But I feel like; everyone is obsessed with the scale when they're trying to lose weight. Right? Anyway I pasted the article below (I got this article via http://www.sparkpeople.com/)


1. You constantly worry about weighing in. When you're trying to lose weight, it's normal to experience some hesitation when it's time for your weekly weigh in. After all, you want to see the numbers go down as confirmation that all of your hard work has paid off. We all want to be rewarded for our efforts, and it can be discouraging when you have done everything right and things still don’t pan out. However, if you find yourself preoccupied with worrisome thoughts of what the scale is going to say tomorrow or the next day, then you might be a little too obsessed with the scale.
2. You weigh in more than once per day. SparkPeople recommends weighing in once a week (or even less). Ever wonder why it's not a good idea to do it more often? Your body weight can and will fluctuate from day to day, and change throughout a single day, too. There is no sense in putting yourself on that roller coaster of ups and downs. In the war on weight, if you become so concerned that you weigh yourself daily or several times a day, you are fighting a losing battle and you will be discouraged. If you feel like you can't control yourself or stop yourself from weighing in each day, then you could be headed for trouble.
3. You can recite your weight to the nearest fraction at all times. This is a sure sign that you are relying too heavily on the scale. Anyone who can tell you not only how much she weighs each day, but measures her weight loss  to the nearest quarter of a pound is probably weighing in too often. There is nothing wrong with wanting to see a lower number on the scale, even if it's a quarter pound lower, but remember that weighing in is more about trends (an average decrease or consistency in weight over time). 
4. The scale determines how you feel about yourself for the day. When the number is down, you step off the scale singing and have a jump in your step all day. When the number goes up (or stays the same when you expected a loss), you feel like Charlie Brown walking around with a rain cloud above your head. To me, this is the saddest situation of all—to let the scale dictate how you should feel. How would you feel about yourself if you hadn't weighed in that day? What other ways would you determine your self-worth if weight didn't exist? If one (or all) of these situations sound familiar to you, it's time to step away from the scale. Go cold turkey. Or at the very least, weigh in less often. But what's a "compulsive weigher" to do?Instead letting the scale alone determine whether you're a success or failure, use more reliable measures to determine your progress. My philosophy is that weight loss is not a goal, but the result of healthy habits like a better diet and regular exercise. When you do step on the scale and don't see the reading you had hoped for, ask yourself these questions: Am I doing what I am supposed to be doing? Am I making healthy food choices most of the time? Am I exercising consistently? If you are, then rust that your body is making positive changes, and the results will come. If you are not, then resolve to be consistent in healthy behaviors to see the results you want. Weighing yourself is definitely helpful and it has its place. Just make sure you don’t go overboard and give too much credence to this one measurement! After all, other measures (like how much energy you have, how much easier it is to climb a flight of stairs, or how well your clothes fit) might not be as precise or scientific, but they're sure to make you feel happier and more successful than a scale ever can.

I hope this article was as useful as it was for me. Until next time...




Love,

Jessica

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

MOTIVATION: TOCCARA JONES

I picked Toccara a former America's Next Top Model contestant because she is shaped some what like me.


(Before)




(After)






When I saw Toccara on the celebrity fit club I thought that she didn't need to be on there. Most of her weight was in her breast, and little in her thighs, but she had a flat stomach and she looked cool to me. Now that she has lost weight though she does look a lot better. I wonder if this is how I'm going to look like when I lose my weight since I am shaped how she was (minus the flat stomach). Well anyway the girl looks great congrats to her! Until next time...

love,

Jessica

WEIGH IN WEIGHT WATCHERS WEDNESDAYS



I weighed in today before my weight watchers meeting. I don't go every week I usually go every other weekand, and just weigh myself at home. But today I did weigh in and I am happy to say that I weighed in at 185.8 pounds which is a total of 14.6 pounds since I've joined weight watchers, and a total loss since I've started this life change of 21.6 pounds! which means I am officially out of the obese category, and my BMI is 29.1! It did take me a little bit longer then I wanted to get out of the obese category, but I'm finally out and I want to celebrate. Usually when I celebrate I go out to eat somewhere, but I need to find other ways to reward myself. I'm thinking maybe a new tattoo hmmm; Until next time...

love,

Jessica

EAT THE CAKE ANNA MAE


This has to be my favorite scene in that movie; besides the part when Tina Turner fought Ike back. Anyway moving on to what this post is about, and that is PEER PRESSURE.You would think that peer pressure is something that jr. high or high school kids go through, but know I go through it almost everyday.

Yesterday I posted pictures of myself in some jeans that I used to wear that are now way to big. A lot of my friends and family saw the picture and congratulated me on my weight loss. So you would think that now they know that I am serious about this healthy lifestyle thing; Right? Well WRONG; I went out to dinner with some friends last night, and I did pretty good by having a grilled chicken salad and I declined dessert. Of course my friends got dessert and the first thing they said when the dessert came to the table is; "Jessica try some of my cake." Now they know that I am trying to lose more weight. Why would they offer me this delicious, moist, delectable red velvet cake? And the answer that I came up with is that they are just not in the same place as me. It's not like they are trying to sabotage my weight loss or anything they just don't understand because they are not on the same path as me. And does this mean that I should stop going out to eat with them? I don't think so as long as I'm in the right mind frame at least.

So I'm sure some of you are thinking; "did she eat the red velvet cake?" And no I didn't I stayed strong because my official weigh in day for weight watchers is today! Until next time...

love,

Jessica

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

SNOOKI'S SLIM DOWN

I'm not a huge Jersey Shore fan, but when they are about to have a good fight or something messy is going to air I will tune in ( I know that's bad, but I love to see some hot mess reality TV). I always did love Snookie, but me and my friends used to joke that she had the shape of an IPad lol. Recently I was watching E news and saw new pictures of her and she looks great.

(before)

(after)



I was joking with my friend that it's only a matter of time before some naked pics get "leaked" of her, and all of a sudden while I was looking for some pictures of her I found this...



I have no comment all I can do is SMH.Until next time...

love,

Jessica



MY LATEST SHOPPING DEALS

Sunday my cousin wanted to go to Jeremys because they were having a 30% off sale on all women clothes (which happens almost every weekend). I really didn't want to go because I don't want to buy a whole lot of clothes until I get to my goal weight, but who am I kidding I'm a sucker for a good sale. So I ended up buying three pairs of jeans and two shirts for $37.00! The shopping gods blessed me that day indeed.

Even though I did get a very good deal; trying on clothes is still a nightmare for me. I would pick out a size 32 in one pair of pants and couldn't fit it, but I picked out a 31 in another designer and could fit it perfect. I even tried on a size 10 in these shorts and they could fit, but I didn't buy them because they made my booty look flat. But my question is what size do I really wear? Until next time...

love,

Jessica

LOOK AT ME NOW

I decided to take a few pics of myself this morning to show everyone my progress, but I still have a long way to go (50 more pounds). These jeans I have on in this picture I bought from Bloomingdales last year they are a size 32.



My stomach has never been huge, but it is getting smaller. Where I hold most of my weight as you can see is my breast and my thighs. Once I get to my goal weight I think I'm going to get a breast reduction so I wont look so top heavy. Well until next time...

love,

Jessica

Monday, June 6, 2011

VOGUE ITALIA GETS CURVY FOR ITS JUNE 2011 ISSUE

Anybody that knows me knows that I love fashion and shopping (I have the credit card debt to prove it). Anyway I have been a Vogue subscriber since I was in high school, and I love the fashions, but I have to say that I do miss seeing women that look like me on the covers of thier magazines. So I was pleasantly surprised when I found out that Vogue Italia was having curvy girls featured in their June 2011 issue. I can't wait to get off work so I can buy this issue!













These ladies are bringing all kind of fabness (I know that's not a word), fierce, killer divaliciousness (I know  that's not a word either), and I'm loving it. I must say that I get so caught up in getting skinny that I forgot that I have to love myself no matter what size I am. So this post goes out to all the curvy ladies; all the real curvy ladies. Not the people that the media calls curvy that are only are a size 4. I'm talking about the real curvy girls with the big booties and thick thighs! So a round of applause for Vogue Italia for featuring REAL WOMEN with REAL CURVES!

Until next time...

love,

Jessica

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

CLOTHES SHOPPING IS SO BITTERSWEET


Hi all; I'm sorry I haven't posted in a while, but I've been fake busy (basically trying to make myself busy because I've bee eating like a crazy person). I hate that I'm still struggling with emotional eating, but I guess I have to take it one day at a time.
Anyway I went to Nordstroms half yearly sale a few weeks ago, and I went crazy in the shoe department because I'm a sucker for a good deal. So I decided to buy some jeans because some of my clothes don't fit anymore. I picked out some jeans that I thought would fit me and went to the fitting room. As I tried on the clothes it was a reality check that yes I have lost a little bit of weight, but I am nowhere near where I'm supposed to be. So I did come up on some good shoe deals that day, but nothing in the clothes department. I'm tired of dreding to go clothes shopping because I know most of the stuff I want to buy either doesn't fit or doesn't look right on me. I know I need to lose weight for Miami, but I keep on procrastinating and telling myself that I have all this time. Which is somewhat true, but if I want to lose 30 pounds by October I need to move now.
I need a workout buddy so if there is anybody that lives in the Bay Area that needs a workout buddy also message me; I would love the company!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

WEIGHT WATCHERS WEIGH IN


Today I went to a Weight Watchers meeting and weighed in. I am now 187.8 pounds which is a 1.6 pound weight loss this week, and a 12.6 pound loss since I've started Weight Watchers in March, and a 19.6 pound loss since I've started my weight loss journey in January. I'm a little disappointed, but I am learning to appreciate any kind of weight loss. Well until next time...

love,

Jessica

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

GIRL YOU BETTER WORK






I have been looking for a cute swim suit for the longest and I was browsing through one of my favorite blogs (fashionbombdaily.com), and she had a post on plus size swim suits, and this was one of the swim suit lines she was talking about. The website is called monifc.com, I couldn't wait to buy one until I saw that the swim suits start at a size 14. Yes I am top heavy but I am to small for a 14, but then I started to wonder maybe I can a seamstress take it in; do you think that could work? Anyway monifc.com has more the swimsuits they have dresses, shoes, and accessories also. May I say though this girl is working these outfits... GIRL YOU BETTA WORK!






Until next time...

love,

Jessica



MY LATEST ONLINE PURCHASES

All of a sudden at work I had a rush of excitement about my Miami trip in October, and my birthday in September. Since I have nothing else to do with my time at work I decided to do a little online shopping. I was only planning on buying one dress as a possible birthday dress, but I got a little carried away.



This was my first purchase of the day; as you can see my girl Kim K wore something similar to it a while ago.




I think this white dress would be perfect for Miami, or the white parties that come up at the end of the summer.




I think this is the contender for my birthday dress; if you couldn't tell from my last Vegas pictures on my birthday I love a sequin dress.


Just to let everyone know all of the dresses that I bought are a size 8, so if I can't fit into a size 8 dress by my birthday then I won't have anything to wear, and I definitely won't be going to Miami looking like a beached whale. It shouldn't be so hard for me to fit into a size 8 dress considering that the dress I wore on my birthday last year was a size 10, but instead of looking like a stuffed pig in a dress I want it to be able to fit right meaning NO SPANX! So what do you think? Do you think that I can do it? Or do you think that my goal isn't challenging enough? Until next time...

Love,

Jessica






IT'S TIME TO LET HIM GO LADY





Chrissy and Jim Jones

Jim Jones' mother
I was watching one of my guilty pleasures Love & Hip Hop it was the reunion special last night; it wasn't as entertaining as I thought it was going to be, but neither was the show really so I don't know what I was really expecting. I must say though all of the ladies did look nice except Somaya (the one w/ the bright red lipstick). After the show one of my friends and I had a talk about one of the cast mates named Chrissy (the one in the grey jumpsuit). She is with a rapper by the name of Jim Jones; his mother is very over bearing and by looks of things is almost impossible for Chrissy to get along with. Me and my friend talked about a few situations where we had to deal with some past and one present relationship where we have to deal with over bearing over protective mothers of grown ass men.

So my question to all the ladies and men (if it applies to you); would you be able to be in a relationship with someone who has an over bearing mother? Like I said earlier I've had my share of boyfriends with over bearing mothers, and I couldn't stand it! On top of that what can I say to my boyfriend; "your mama gets on my nerves and I can't stand her." No I can't say that, so I either have to sit there and take it or leave. When I'm in a relationship it's me and you not me you your mama. I believe that most mothers that are like that are miserable and lonely and want their son's to fill in as there man instead of their grown adult son. I'm sorry for the rant, but I just had to say how I felt about this situation. Until next time...

love,

Jessica

Monday, May 16, 2011

MY FIRST YOGA CLASS


I'm back everyone; I took a little break from blogging last week because I have a very stressful week last week. Anyway a week and a half ago I went to my first yoga class, and it was pretty challenging. But when I finished it I felt so good and energized. I will definitely go to more classes, but my work schedule seems to interfere with most of the classes at the studio I went to. So if anyone knows any other classes in the Oakland, CA area please let me know; Thank you in advance... Until next time...

love,

Jessica

Friday, May 6, 2011

BIKRAM YOGA


Sunday I start my first yoga class at Bikram's Yoga College- Oakland. I'll be going by myself this time so I doubt I'll be able to take any pictures. I'm not sure how well I'll do considering I don't have much experience with yoga outside of this yoga DVD I bought a few years ago. Hopefully I'll be able to stick with it so I can be a flexible as this lady in the picture. Wish me luck that I don't embarrass myself during my first yoga class; until next time...

love,

Jessica

I GOT MY FIRST AWARD!!!!!


I got my first award yesterday by Lisa Mancini of http://lcmancinichallenge.blogspot.com/ it's a really nice blog and it's very insperational for people that want to lose weight. Thanks for the award Lisa! So now I have to write seven things about me hmmm....

Seven Things About Jessica

1. I love tattoos (I have 7)
2. I love sports; I used to play basketball in high school till I got pregnet
3. I am sa boarderline shopaholic (if I can't hit the mall I'll go shopping online)
4. I am a single mother of one gorgous son
5. I am a weaveaholic. I haven't worn my real hair out in years; not because I don't have any, but out of convenence
6. I am a pastors daughter (my mom and step dad are pastors of a church
7. I love to travel. I get hit with the travel bug when my grandfather took me to Saudi Arabia when I was 12

So I'm going to pass this award to the two bloggers that I follow and inspire me that don't have this award yet.

http://gettingnshape.blogspot.com/

http://fattofab150.blogspot.com/


Until next time all...

love,

Jessica